I'm resolved.
I'm going to use and abuse this blog as a tool to get my arse writing, working on voice, and getting me through until production ends and I am going to focus on writing, finally, full time.
But for now, I'm an on-set special-function slave-type worker-bee for a network television drama.
I guess it's easy to be so resolved, right now--I'm free for the moment. Glorious holiday break, a scant twoish weeks free from the grueling 12-16 hour days.
Nearly every crew member on set works 5 days a week, there are some day players, or strange folks like me with specialized jobs that aren't required in every scene. I work around half the scenes, but I'm there a lot more than half the time. Works out to be at least 3 days a week, but usually more like 4 and I've had more 5 day weeks than I'd like to remember. Since mid July, we've been doing thing. And will continue straight up after New Years until mid-end of March.
It's an insane schedule that is honestly trying to kill you. If it were not for having wireless internet when we are at the studio I would truly go mad. Me & My MacBook Pro: BFF. On location (read: no internet, unless some ignorant chump happens to have an open wireless network nearby), I read screenplays, or books, or the backlog of my boyfriend's Make Magazines. Sometimes I write, but it's hard with the constant interruptions and Channel 1 chatter that I have to listen to for the 1 in 100th time they are calling for me.
My job on set is extraordinarily easy for me, but the reason I'm in this job is really not for my actual job. It's to learn.
The show I work on is underrated, but the writing is fabulous. The acting is top notch as well. But it's on a network that's not taken very seriously. But it's honestly a good show. You could say I'm biased, but in the past I've frankly worked on some crappy stuff, and I knew it. But I'm now a huge fan of my own show. Even cooler, at least from my learning persective, is that instead of seeing it on screen first I get to gobble down the script, watch the production process (for the most part), and then see the finished product on the lil screen. I get to watch various directors and their styles. I get to fulfill one of my production goals to work in and around the art department. So it's been good for a lot of reasons.
But I know It's Time. It's Waaaay Past Time, in fact, for me to start trolling through those endless text files of ideas and beginnings and snippets of stories and see what I've got -- and finally finish a draft of something. So I started, and then realized a lot of what I was thought was great is crap. And I'm so relieved, in a way, because it means I am able to see plot holes and potential problems more clearly than before. Can't be bad.
So, as for this 'ol thing (kicks blog's tires) ...not quite sure what I'm gonna use 'er fer: bitchin 'bout work, writing about writing that I should be writing, or just lamenting about life. We shall see.
Let's get this party started.
